Half Of My Heart

I wish I would stop thinking about him. Really I do! Even he's the thought that could make me smile but I still want to forget him. He's too good for me, I know there's a lot of girls out there that's so much better. He deserve way better girl.

Our relationship is hanging. Do you realize that? I know if I let my heart decide, I would be falling crazily deep in love with you but I've been hurt before, we both been hurt by ourselves. So, now I'm letting my brain to decide. And it decides to stop thinking about you but no matter how hard I tried, there's always something remind me about you, that always can relate to you even the truth nothing was related.

I denied my feeling but I couldn't help myself to feel 'that way'. You're too special and I don't know what makes you so special. I don't know if I can ever feel like this to anyone else. Honestly I wish I could because I really want to forget you because you're clouding up my mind with you sweetness but somehow I couldn't. As if I couldn't betray you when the truth we're not together.

Anyway, this is what I want to say but I somehow I couldn't. I miss you. So much. I really do.

Oh God! Please stop this feeling! I have other thing to focus. A lot of things! And those things really important for my future. Please help me. Amen.

So here it goes. You are the best thing that's ever been mine. Yes, you are.

I was enchanted to meet you. No doubt.

I see sparks fly whenever you smile. Absolutely. Always and still but I'm trying to avoid the sparks.

P/S: I know, none of the song from Half Of My Heart was in but I can relate it to the song. I can most definitely relate to its title.